We celebrated half way through chemo 2 weeks ago. To be honest, I didn’t celebrate much (unless you count a little pity party). The truth is I was weary of the road and there is still so fart to travel before I will be cancer free. It’s a little daunting and I would really like to be finished already.
But as I was driving to work after chemo last week (go ahead and let yourself marinate on the miracle in that phrase for a moment! I. DROVE. TO. WORK. AFTER. CHEMO. Hashtag not your grandma’s chemo.) As I was saying, as I drove to work after chemo last week two bits of Scripture kept reverberating in my head: 2 Corinthians 4:18, “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” And Philippians 4:8 “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.” I realized I’d shifted my gaze and in doing so, I was missing the ridiculous abundance of blessings that I’ve received throughout this season. It shouldn’t have shocked me. After all, if all you focus on is the long trail to the summit as you climb a mountain you will miss some spectacular views along the way.
So today I’m celebrating the view right where I am. Here’s to the excellent and praiseworthy, to being more than half way through chemo, to a husband who is my rock, champion, cheerleader, chef, oh crap I need a ch word for best friend… to family & friends who are supporting us with love, prayer and encouragement, to amazing medical minds and advancements that have made chemo more tolerable than ever before, to a job and coworkers who are gracious, flexible and supportive, to puppy snuggles, to no nausea, to girls weekends, to kicking cancer’s butt, and to a faithful, powerful, present and purposeful God.
Yesterday I completed round 10 of 12 of Taxol. On August 13, I’ll switch to 4 bi-weekly rounds of AC. I’d be lying if I said that didn’t scare me a bit. It’s known to be harder on patients than the Taxol, will likely cause nausea and impair my immune system, and can cause heart damage and other less desirable side effects.
My specific prayer requests:
- Peace not just for me, but for all of my loved ones, that we would draw near to God and be comforted by His presence.
- Complete healing.
- Continued general health. Specifically, that my white blood cell counts & platelet levels would remain in an acceptable range and that my heart would be protected from any damage.
- Future Baby H.
- Blessings for my team at MDA.
- God’s glory.